I have taken a personal journey of my very own. This journey ( in my eyes) was one of the hardest I have ever taken. I took the journey is of self healing and family relationships. I started the journey unknowingly, to end up searching for the right paths and footing to take along the way. Though I know and feel that this journey will never fully be over with, I look forward to taking each new step, daily.
A blog or two ago I stated what it takes to have eternal love you must have an eternal family. An answer that I have only excepted over time, but to have fully embraced this answer I had to ask another question first. How on earth do I even go about having an eternal family when ( at the time I asked this question}my family is in such shambles that half of us didn't even want to talk to each other... let alone have an eternal bondage? How is any of this even possible?
Trust me the beginning stages of this journey along with a lot in the middle and the continued steps that follow, a lot of pain and discouragement comes about. But so does more happiness and love than even seen possible. Luckily I had allies along the journey that gave me strength and the knowledge to continue onward. These allies were found in my family members who wanted the same things a I did, and in my own little family lead by Brandon. I embarked on asking my family around me, talking to them about how they would like our relationship to be. On one side of the family I was surprised and comforted to learn that all of us felt that we could do more to better each of relationship and were willing to work toward it. On the other side of the family a lot of different emotions came about. The emotions that are expressed were, " I am sick of even talking about our family let alone trying to heal it." Needless to say, much harder to work with, so I thought.
As I began to work with my families, and partook the beginning steps to healing, the one side of the family that was willing and wanting to change proved to be harder to do so, while the other family already had a lot of the steps in play. I also learned the healing process is not very easy depending on how connected you are. My side of the family ( the family I grew up with) was extremely hard to even take the step let alone even began walking down the trail. I had to come to a hard realization that is was me who need to find that path first before I showed it to anyone else. I need to deal with myself first, before I could heal anything..
So once I answered the question of what to do, and learned that if was followed by another question of how, the answer I now have received is " you must start with yourself, or nothing will ever get accomplished."
Love Kamie
